So I'm here at the office at the ungawdly hour of 10:30pm ... and my brain is fried from processing about 100 tax returns for most of the day.. but also I have alot on my mind, unfortunately.. I keep thinking;
I know I have alot to offer, If and when the time is right, that will be shown. I feel I`m ready to build that foundation.. It`s wierd how I never used to think like that. But certain events have forced me to really ponder on what`s important. My dad and I actually had a lengthy conversation yesterday.. A very rare thing for us. I lamented to him after a while that I doubt I'll ever get this relationship thing right. If you're not careful.. trying to make a relationship work can drain the energy out of you. I dunno why people put themselves through that constantly.
From what' I've seen around me;
You either complain too much or you don't complain enough
You either talk too much or communication is lacking
you're either too aggressive or not aggressive enough
you're either a "gold digger" or you're too independent
you either want too much emotionally or you're too aloof
you're either jealous or you're not trusting enough or you're too trusting and that's where you cud possibly get screwed over
Is there ever a person that you can ever just mesh with?
you understand them, they understand you
you accept them for who they are and vice versa?
Nothing complicated .. just make things that simple?

After all that , you know what my dad's response was? ... " I dunno mi dawtah , I juss dunno"..

LOL!!!!. My old man is the best

It'd be nice to have a willing partner to hop on board with me and take that ride. One never knows- It could be a lot of fun!I guess that`s what they call growing up. or not enough gin and tonic in your system

But putting that issue aside .. I do indeed have waaay more important things to be concerned about.. I'll leave that venting for another night..



back to work *sigh*